R u n n i n g

I've broken down many times,
Hit the floor & crashed hard,
Fallen down and smashed into pieces,

But am I afraid of falling now?
The pressure takes over my mind and body,
Why do I want to run away from the truth now?
Am I afraid this time?
Is this too much to take?

Last time's failings haunt my brain,
Trying to burn the memories, but the ashes are still there,
Fear creeps up from behind and grasps me,
I don't want to fall again,
Even though I have fallen so many times,

Running away from everything,
Doing whatever it takes not to fall again,
Forgetting myself and loosing myself for nothing!
Not facing the truth, but running away from it,
This isn't me,